Cocoons vs. Caves
It’s hard for me remember that a cocoon is protection. It’s often used as a metaphor as a place of hiding or retreat, which would probably be more accurately described as a cave. But a cocoon is an envelope of security – a protective lining. I get an image of God holding us in the palm of His hand – cocooning us from the weight of the world.
But when we decide to build our own cocoons, our own protection from the world, we will fail. Even our best attempts at creating a sanctuary will crumble and expose our raw wounds. In this section of Working it Out, Abby Rike shows us the cocoon she built around herself and how God gave her the grace to realize that her own strength was not enough to get her through the rest of her life without her family.
I had to come to grips with the fact that my cocoon was not the safe place. The cocoon was the suffocating place, the place where my vicious cycle continued and I asked, Why is there no light? Why am I stuck here? without every actually finding an answer. The coon was tight and uncomfortable, not safe and inviting – a trap, not a haven. And the more I wrapped myself in layers and layer of protective coating, the harder it was to emerge from that false sense of security. It was not until later that I realized a cocoon is not a sweet escape from life. It is the absence of life.” – Abby Rike, Working it Out
It’s so hard to trust in anything or anyone when we are so badly wounded and disoriented. Our instinct is to tuck the problem into our hearts and try to ignore the pain, while it eats us from the inside out.
If we could just remember what we are called to do in Proverbs 3:5-6:
“Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight.”
I learned something from Abby in this section. I create a cocoon around myself all the time – from big issues to little issues and everything in-between. I have been under the assumption that healing happens all at one time – that I will have an epiphany and will immediately be able to let go of my problems. But I think maybe the healing process comes off as it goes on – one layer at a time. It starts in the heart, maybe as a small whisper, then moves outward, encompassing anything in its path.